Suicidal Effects

Suicidal Effect
Tell Me Lies
That's What You Did
Made Me Believe You'd Love Me
When You Really Didn't
The Truth Hurts
But It Hurts Even Worse When You Lied To Me
Lied About Loving Me
Lied About Caring For Me
Lied About Everything
It Hurts
Cause I Was Sucidual Didn't Mean For You To Lie To Me
You Told Me What I Wanted To Hear
You Made The Lies Sound Good
But You Lied Not Thinking I'll Be Hurt
But I Am
So I Popped Pills To Get Rid of The Pain
I Gotta Live With This Day By Day
How Can I Love Somebody & Just Watch Them Love Someone Else?
Made Me Think It Was Something Special
The Love Was Still There
You Still Cared
But You Don't
Pills Became My Bestfriend
Enough To Ease My Pain
Crying and Popping Pills One By One
Popped A Few Here & Popped A Few There.
The Only Way To Get Rid of Pain Pass Out
First Love First Heartache The Biggest Headache

And the BIGGEST MISTAKE!

Just Told Me What I Wanted To Hear
Not Knowing That I Still Was Sucidual
You Don't Even Care So Why Should I?
Founding Out The Person You Love Didn't Love You Just Felt Sorry For You.
Shit Hurts & You Don't Care
It Hurts But Turning To Pills & A Shot Made It All Better.
No Need To Cry Things Will Get Better
Not For You, For Me.
Slowly Day By Day I Become Stronger Than Before. You Love Me? No You Loved Having Me
I Was A Puppet Nothing More Nothing Less. You Didn't Care. So Now Your Dead To Me. Just My Imagination. Like When You Pop Pills Black Out You Remember Nothing. So After This You're Nothing Just A Lesson. Every Lesson Is Learned. Never Fall In Love Easily. Cause When Somebody Turns Out Lying About Loving You.. You Get Suicidal... & It Becomes The Suicidal Effect

-Vee

Volleyball

So last year I tried out for the volleyball team and sad to say I didn't make it. Over the summer I only practiced once and that's cause I played at the church. So this year I decided to try out again and guess what? I made the team. It was hard as hell. I'm fat so you can imagine how I am with running. Now just don't let my fatness fool you. I can run maybe not as fast as the others but I can. I might be fat but I won't give up. I'll push myself even when I feel like I want to stop. My friends push me as well. I'm no quieter I'm going to always push myself to the best of my ability.

Anyways let's move to last weekend. last Saturdary we had a game =. I felt kind of nervous riding the bus to the game but once i got there I felt kind of well. I still had some butterflies but that's because it was the first time I ever played volleyball with people that I didn't know. But we did our first game and gave the second game a heck of a try. It's all about having fun and well we had a lot of fun. last year they didn't win as much but I have faith that this year will be much better.

I have a couple of my Shootas on the team too. So you can imagine how that goes.

How Can You?

How Can You Build A Bond With Someone Who Ain't Tryna Bond With You? Why Keep Going Back To The Past When It's Hurting You? Why Put Yourself Through The Same Shit Over & Over & Over Again? Why You Trying To Make It Some It's Not? Why You Keep Crossing Oceans For Someone Who Won't Jump Over A Puddle For You?

Misunderstanding Your Position

Everyone loves having a boyfriend, but some of y'all that think when a guy says y'all talk you automatically think y'all talk on that level. Y'all misunderstand your positions and I hate that!! There's a difference between talk and "talk". Talk means y'all converse on a friend level. "Talk" means y'all talking a friends with benefits level or as boyfriend and girlfriend. Please put it in your head. Thinking that y'all talk more than friends, when y'all not, & get the definitions mixed up, will get you emotionally fucked up. Is he really yours? No he's not yours. He's only yours cause you THINK y'all "talk". Ladies know your position, play that role, & Don't think y'all relationship is something it's not.




PLEASE DON'T MISUNDERSTAND WHERE YOUR RELATIONSHIP IS!!! QUIT!!! Females play the role you're ENTITLED to. Stay in your position and stop trying to be the other woman. Stop trying to interfere with another man when you know his taken. Stay in your lane and leave him and his alone. 

How Much Love Hurts?

Love hurts
I remember when i was your first
Hearing that song tore me apart
I dreamed it would've been til death due us part.
Our love was one of a kind
The way i feel, you'll be surprised
A smile to hide my pain
Feels like my heart has been run over by a train
No words express how I feel.
You was my first true love
a person I'd give my all to
When we were together, we were like glue.
Looking at your bear at night.
Remind of the hours you'd hold me tight
Pouring out my feelings, is hard to do
Ever since i lost you
It's hard to love again or simply let another man in.
No female will treat you like i did.
Maybe then that will be when your search ends
Remembering your past was a blast
Maybe then you'll realize what you had
Was the best you'd ever had.
             

Heartbreaks 💔💔💔💔

When you love somebody it's hard to let them go.

It burns a whole in my heart cause you don't know how i feel inside. 

It hurts.

I'm hurting like hell

Sometimes you act like you just don't seem to care.

I fell in this thing called love & came out with a heartache.

How would you feel when your heart breaks?

That's how i'm feeling with this heartache.

I've given up on love

Cause having your heart break is no fun.

Love? Just a 4 letter word that doesn't have a meaning to it.

So why should I care when my heart breaks? 

My heart is like the word love. Useless!

Love will have you standing clueless.

It's okay something I'm used to it.

You broke my heart that you did,

But trust me it'll happen to you to my friend. Then, how would you feel when you go through a heartbreak?

Just like me, how I'm going through a heartache.

💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

The Other Woman

Was it to good to be true?
Cause i was starting to really love you.
The situation hurted me so bad
That even my words are dead.
First time i ever felt this way
Love makes a person go insane
You asked me to give you a chance
I did.
Yu asked me to give you my heart
I did again.
Afraid of it.
Praying to God you'd keep your word and take care of it.
Not saying you're to blame
But my feelings for you aren't the same.
I gave you my all
And that's exactly when things started to fall.
We made it through it
That we did
But then the devil was knocking at the door
And it hurt me to the core
Devil came right in
Trying to tear us apart
i tried to stop him
But it's only so much a woman can do
Hoping her man will stand up & defend the situatuion that was supposedly the truth.
Had her looking like a fool
Don't you think you hurt her?
To have a hoe come at her
"that's my man boo"
Well hoe that's my man too.
Added you to the conversation
Only cause I needed some comformation
On who's lying in this situation
You didn't stand up for me us or this relationship.
Therefore I thought it was the naked truth
But it wasn't
See the truth starting to unfold
And you became bold
Yea you told her off
But will we ever start back from where we left?
I don't know cause now this navy thing has kicked in
And I'm not ready for it to happen
But if that's your dream go ahead captin
I won't forget the love we dreamed
Maybe it'll still happen after the 6 years you have.
I deserve answers
To the whole thing I called love.
To me, trusting you with my heart, my soul, my everything.
You were my everything in a months time
But we talked before we tied that knot.
I guess it can work, I don't know.
But give it to me straight.
Am i living a fantasty or is this reality?
That's not even the real question.......
Lord knows you were my everything.
Everything I ever wanted.
But the real question is.......................................



Is this relationship even worth it?